Alright. I'm addicted to beethoven virus. =) it somehow make me think back of the time when i first join band and the journey in band and i simply LOVE the conductor and the trumpeter laaa. WOOHOOO. Luckily my MYE ended fast so that i have time to finish watching but currenly i'm still at episode 17.

Well,i don't expect much for my mid year but i still have quite expectation in myself.HAHA.
ok. For english,a pass will do.Math,this time a B3 will satisfied me.Chinese,a B3 will also satisfied me.combine humanities,A2 and POA,an A1. compared to last year,I difitely dropped alot but do YOU think i'm going to give up?HAHA!! I WON"T. Btw,i find it fun to coloured my text.wahahahaha.
Alrightttt, i'm off to watch BEETHOVEN VIRUSSSSS!!!

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Its 1.10am now and If I'm not wrong, it is mothers' day.Well,most child would show how much they love their mom this day and we would always hear people saying"which mother on earth will not care about their children" and "which mother on earth will not miss their children when they are not by their side" maybe most/all people will agree but i don't.I apologise if this post made some people feel uncomfortable but i still want to express out my feelings.

Because of you,i had been suffocating for 6years.
Because of you,i had a scar in my heart.
Bacause of you,i'm alone.
Bacause of you,i lost my beloved grandma.
Bacause of you,i'm not open.
Because of you,i'm hurt.
Because of you,i had been crying in the middle of the night.
Bacause of you,i can't be like other child.
Because of you,i have fear.
Because of you,i'm not happy.
Because of you,you changed my cute brother to a...
Because of you,my life is always silent.
Because of you,i'm always depress.
Because of you,i don't dare to share my trouble.
Because of you,i always give a fake smile and laugh.
Because of you,everything changes.
Because of you,i hate you.
Because of you,my dad...
Because of you,sis had to work.
Because of you,everyone suffer.
Because of you,we nearly broke.
Because of you,I AM AFRAID.
but....

Because of you,i become independent.
Because of you,i become more brave.
Because of you,i had a target in life.
Bacause of you,i learnt how to perservere.
Because of you,i told myself that i don't want to be like you.
Because of you,i told myself to be strong.

I will not make the same mistake that you did.
I have to thank you for letting me experience this kind of feeling,so that i know in the future i will never ever let my child experience cos it's to hurt for a child to bare.
I cannot cry and show you my weakness.
and now i'm not afraid.
I hope that one day you will regret the dicision that u had made.It's wrong.
and i also hope that at least ur heart can leave some space for us,your children because missing you is pain.your children is hurt,do you know that?

(i'm look veryyy fat)

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